Alright it might be crazy but today I was able to full fledge sprint for 35 minutes because I decided to use the same practices I use for mediating while running. I wonder if I can keep doing this, learn to control the workout “pains” completely. I was so excited, I still felt it after the workout though. Oh well. :3 To bad I couldn’t mediate away the urge to molest my mental hubby already… I should hit the hay I have drugs to count & sell tomorrow. Oh another day in the pharmacy love it!
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Nose bleeds, false needs, black tea, living in greed this is the life I lead for my done deeds, for now this siren must feed. So here is a predicament indeed, we can not be freed, I beg to thee, "Please forgive me."
& You're perfect don't let anyone tell you otherwise.
Personal blog. Rated M for Mature. Please stay kind. I give non-judgemental advise.
Going to look at a car today…
A 2006 PT Cruiser only 20,000 miles on it for about 4,900. So excited I might have a car again. :) than again I love Jacob driving me around. Haha. None the less wish me luck.
Guess who has been doing better health wise. This little girl right here. Feeling strong & fit anymore. I mean I seriously am feeling like I can live with myself. Its nice I have been this way for a while now. I just feel strong as a person. Its nice.
I need to buys some more lens for my camera….one day.
I want yogurt but ever since I got sick of off probiotic yogurt I cant stomach it. :< MyLIFE! :<
So I successfully bought my weave…
Now I have to re color it, for it needs brightened up but it goes well with the under layer of my hair & I have to get someone to cut it & blend it into my hair. I am so excited ALSO I found a healthier way of having it in my hair. Instead of fusions, sewing, glueing or clipping it into my hair I turned them into what are called “flip in” hair extensions which are literally placed on the head & your hair is flipped over it? Look it up I suck at explaining shit. I got the idea when I was looking up different hair extension sellers. I found what was called Halo Couture Extensions. Anyways I am totes happy & excited. Well night loves photoshoot tomorrow. Night night!
40 bucks til I can afford my weave. I might just steal it outta my car fund. Augh. Never getting a car but I will have pretty hair. :D
At the same time I keep telling myself not to buy it cause I know extensions breaks your hair bad but I am tired of this length. For almost 6 months I do nothing but baby it. My hair color is all semi to not damage, top of the line organic sulfate free shampoo & conditioners, for the most part heat free unless I am going out, hair masks, coconut, olive, rosemary, lavender & peppermint oil constantly. I pop biotin/”hair,skin&nails” & prenatal vitamins daily. Sucks augh. Yet it still breaks, still damaged & still takes for ever to grow. I hope my hair grows during the summer I heard it grows faster during the warm seasons. Blah.More & more I find myself drifting from people. The negativity is too much & that is all they are now is negative vibes pulsing through the air. Everything to their life, their self, to change. Worse is when they can not see past it in themselves so the negative things are the first thing they pick out in others. I don’t enjoy it & true that is their own life their aura tries to drag you in or make you feel guilty for not holding such negativity. I don’t know. All I know is I can no longer stand being near such negative people & I am surrounded by them daily. I think Jacob is the only person who is never negative, oh & Fruccie he is realistic but never can I remember a time where he is negative same with Jocelyn she complains at time, but also realistic & never to the point where she is what I consider as over negative. Mostly people at work, towards themselves or others & a few friends well at least my closest dumplings aren’t like this. That is always a positive thing. :)
Jacob & myself are always “borrowing” & “lending” money to each other, it no biggie. I told him the next time he wants money from me he has to strip dance for it. I showed him I could I think he is hoping I have borrow something off of him soon. Haha
Soooo I am excited I am going on a date with my gorgeous stud, my two stunning best friends Jocelyn & Heather, Jocelyn’s handsome man Fruccie & Our good friend Shawn. We are going to eat at Buffalo Wild Wings (in which I already researched all my food options & what is the “healthiest” meal they have) so yeah. Than to the mall where I will look for leggings & hair dye, & to the movies. I am so excited. Idk I am stupid it’s cool. Than I am off tomorrow as well that right two days in a row. :3 Also i am saving up for hair extensions. I estimate them to be placed in my hair cut & dyed about $400. Note why I am saving, the only problem is i am going back & forth on wanted to keep my blood red hair or to go ginger, yeap thats right ginger. i really have no idea what i want to do. this red hair is soo much healthier for my hair than alot of color cause this hair dye is only semi permanent so it does no harm, but it always fades, while a also wanted copper hair but I don’t know if my hair being technically brown with red on top will be too much to strip. I don’t know well gotta wash this dye outta my hair & get pretty for tonight.
